Yes and no.

I often refer to my past, even though one shouldn't, I like to give myself a pat on the back from how far I've come. When it comes to confidence it all stems from being exposed to a stimulus and still being able to analyze and act accordingly. This doesn't mean that I can't improve my own being and confidence - I'm still learning and growing as a person but here are some broadened perspectives when trying to comprehend one's own self confidence.

Why do I absolutely hate school but love knowledge and education?

You see, being Asian, there's only one path - you go to school or die. I'm only partially joking here.

As technology and innovation occurs at an enormous pace the traditional school system will become obsolete - that's a given. The democracy of knowledge and the power of the internet will make yesterday's degrees a thing of the past. With the exclusion of typical must-have career choices for university degrees and credentials (e.g. doctors, accountants, etc.); school is a big conforming machine and I'll explain why I have such a lopsided hate towards it.

Every Asian Immigrant Parents' Struggle and Their Wishes in a Westernized Society.

Growing up with Asian parents, and being a first generation Asian-Canadian/American/Western - it comes with its fair share of a clashing of conflicts. On one hand you have parents who grew up, not only in a different era, but a different world. A world where you had to worry about surviving - food, shelter, are we going to live another day.

Where in contrast being born in a 'first world' country you have the luxury of being able to do what you want if you work hard enough. So you have traditional mindsets of the stereotypes of being doctors, pharmacists, lawyers, etc in order to make a living - and the reality is some Asian children listen and do whatever it is their parents want and it's essentially reinforced on to the next generation....

It often irks me when people try to talk to me about my childhood or family, strange of me, I know, but it's mainly because it's the root of who I am, and why I am.

Thing is, I grew up poor. There's things I still need to work on (of course) but I'm going to unravel a little about my life and my childhood; to maybe explain why the way that I am. People on YouTube tend to portray a certain persona or character on the screen and the real them is not really shown.

After reviewing a lot of my responses which you can comment at MY FEEDBACK FORM

I know that there's a lot of things that I need and must work on to be better because it's something I'm working on, hustling on every damn day. I am very aware of how my videos aren't where they need to be or what I'm capable of. It takes time, practice and dedication. Truth is, if you bring it down to amount of work I've put in, I've only put in a solid 4-6 months of making videos over a time span of a year - while simultaneously worrying about school and work. It takes 10,000 hours to be an expert at anything and I'm still learning and growing; striving to get better.